Harvest

I've lived a life of discipline
I've lived a life that's free
of all the must's and have to's I thought were chaining me

The wind of chaos blowing
muffled twirls of sand
you cannot build much anything
on such a shifting land

We've heard the word
called "entropy":
that in the end, you lose.
but movement is necessity
up or down: you choose



~~~~~~So, in misty Bali days

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ as warm seas lazy roll

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I choose the life of discipline

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ its my world,

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ after all.

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I wandered into a dull and lonely place
the empty warmth of passionless womb
where acid fires sobered down to warm coals

Sharpness rounded off into uninterested, heavy stones
dragging themselves around with no real zest to amble

It was not lack of answers
I've always found a way to overcome and enliven and progress
once I have a question

These sullen windless days of travel
it was a lack of questions that stilled the air
where your body moves
but you don't go anywhere

The guardians stepped in

as they did in the beginning

and sparked my life with wonder


Archetypes
Perception
Mayans
Nature of man
Physicas
Language learning
Music theory
Emotions
Subconscious

I've dug up grist for the mill.
Now I can travel with a purpose again.
And see these wild Sumatras with intention.

Thanks to a Mexican Castenada
the moon under mystic seas
the wrong season
and Mescalito


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Terima Kashi!
Suksmon!

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These psychic nations I visit are somewhere along the physical route I trace. Burning across China, sloshing through muddy and slow Sumatra and hopping to Bali - It all becomes something in the ventricle factories.

"How to live"
has been the unmistakable central point of my voyage
It's not so difficult to see anymore
I witness before me the new and vast battlefield of the mind
that requires a constant effort

I can share little of value with my future self other than to canonize the hard-wrought principles that have transformed my decisions:

1. Simplify
2. Purify
3. Let Go
4. See Objectively and Analyze

and principles that have increased my joy of life:

5. Make Music
6. Meditate
7. Connect

and Buddha's three marks to witness everywhere:

8. Impermanence
9. No Self
10. Suffering

And that's it. All this time these 10 things have consumed my psychic energies for good or for worse. The more energy I put into these 10, and the less I waste on the twirling dance of hedonism, chaotic questioning and future-past quagmires, the more effective my life is and the more full of a human I feel.